The Soapdish Homesick Syndrome

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

    I keep thinking about the soap dish. In Shoreditch, London, during this design festival that my mum
took our entire parade to: People I’d met maybe twice in my life coming together for my week-long
farewell non-party.

    My parents had come to London with me to help me settle in before university started. It was a
group of three that kept getting bigger as my parents pulled in all their friends in the vicinity to be a
part of the goodbyes. Maybe it was a weird coping mechanism, I don’t know, I didn’t overthink it

    That day, Mama kept slipping in and out of small corner shops, leaving all of us outside when she
found one. So, someone would pull out a cigarette, another would pull out some form of small talk.
With every shop that we were stranded outside, the small talk got scarcer, more obscure and
desperate— but that’s just an aside.

    There was this one shop that Mama dragged Papa into. It was an off-beat, independent home
store sort of space. They sold porcelain plates and funky bookends and wooden spoons and pans
with twisted handles, that sort of thing. I waited outside, with two of my parents’ friends. They
asked me about university and I gave them my automatic responses; nodding enthusiastically and
describing my course: “I’m very excited… Undergrad… Oh, I think London’s beautiful…. Yeah, I
know they’re going to miss me when they leave.”

    Papa came out of the shop and he said, “look at this.”

    He was holding a soap dish in his hands. A delicate, white thing with a deep blue border across its
edges. It looked like it was made out of eggshells and ink.

    “It’s nice” I said.

    “Isn’t it?”

    I nodded.

    He was still holding it out to me, carefully, as if it were a small bird in his big hands. “Do you want

    My parents were only here for a week. Everyday, they were coming up with lists of odd objects
and items that we’ve never had to think about before— that I’ve never had to think about before,
for my dorm room. I spent a week after they left without salt. I still don’t have scissors.

    “I won’t use it.” I said and shrugged.

    “Are you sure?” His shoulders slumped a little bit but there was still this childish glint of hope or
something that my parents often get in their eyes, and that I only noticed that week, before they

    I said, “I’ll buy shower gel, I won’t need it.”

    He nodded and went back inside.

    The adults said, “aw, that was so sweet. He looked so sad.” And they laughed.

    “Why? I wouldn’t have used it. Anyway, it’s just a soap dish.”


    But I keep thinking about that soap dish. My parents bought me shampoo and face wash and
moisturiser before they left and they bought me bars of soap. I thought I’d made it clear that
shower gel would have been ideal but Mama bought me two bars of soap instead. I keep it in the
corner of my plastic caddy bag; I need a caddy bag because there are only shared bathrooms in
my dorm and… And I don’t have anywhere to put the soap.

    My parents, they left a month ago. I know I can buy a soap dish myself, I’m doing everything else
myself but… I don’t know if you understand. They’re my parents. They left a month ago.

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